Thursday, May 31, 2012 10:35 pm

Random

listen, ♥I miss my long hair.

Sunday, May 27, 2012 4:09 pm

thoughts

listen, ♥Was browsing through the pictures that was taken on my birthday, and I cannot help but feel bitter sweet about it. It was indeed a great day, but the events that took place thereafter was so overwhelming that a wonderful day slowly faded to become some more bleak than usual. I've always wondered why things would turn out that way, and how can I salvage the situation. But time and again, I find myself dumb founded, with no answers to the questions that I've asked.

I know life isn't for me to decide and I'll be living in a world that always requires me to question "why" things went this and that way. It's the little things that life does to you, that can make you happy or sad, feel bitter or sweet. It's just a fine line between everything.

There were many points in time when I wondered if I'm making the right decisions and such. Sometimes I find myself being hurt by the decisions that I've made. And then, the "what if(s)" kick in, complicating the whole matter altogether.

This feeling of emptiness inside a house that is filled with people, emotions and hell loads of memories, is killing me. Slowly, but certainly.

I'm tired of trying to figure things out, really am tired.

Saturday, May 26, 2012 10:46 pm

Cherish

listen, ♥It's the little things in life that makes one happy.

& I cannot thank the people around me enough for alway being there.

2:03 pm

Strength

listen, ♥"Although you may be hurt and bleeding now, a better day will come. Hard work will never betray you." -Gary, Leessang

Sunday, May 20, 2012 12:08 am

Sudden

listen, ♥Sunshine and love be with you,
In rainy days I shall be with you.
Love is no fool,
Dreams come true.
I'll always be with you!

Saturday, May 19, 2012 10:59 pm

Filled

listen, ♥The influx of emotions is killing me through confusion. I'm barely making it alive, I'm barely thinking straight.

How am I suppose to feel?! What am I suppose to say?! I'm stuck, right here, where I refused to be in the first place.

I sit here wondering what life was like then, what am I suppose to do, how am I gonna make thing better. And I sigh, so loud, that I hear the echoes in my own head.

What am I doing?! What am I saying?! Am I even making sense in the first place?!

And if one day you happen to need someone, I'm still the one, I'll always be the one. Cause you matter that much. And as much as it hurts and sucks to see you this way, I wish I could make thing better with all that I have.

They say we have to give and take in life, but how much must we give in order to receive, and do we always get what we deserve or do we always get less than what we have given?!

I don't know. That has never been anything that I would bother thinking about or to consider, but today, that realisation made its break through and here I am, thinking and reflecting over everything and anything that happened over the years. Reminiscing on the past, and trying hard enough to move forward.

I'm lost, in my own world, my own thoughts. And I keep asking myself - why.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012 10:18 pm

Linus

listen, ♥Am very happy today. Finally got to see Linus after almost a year, and we caught up.

Life, and the stupid things it does to you. We had so much to catch up on, so much life story to share and the list goes on. But time only allowed us so much.

The almost two hour long meet up was filled with mixed emotions. I was happy, (absolute understatement) yet I felt that I should be doing something better with my life.

But it doesn't matter, at least for today. (:

Hopefully we get to meet more often since he can now drive. :D /hint

And now, it's time to hit the sack! Thank you for dinner and for sending me home! <3

Goodnight all you lovely people. ^^

Sunday, May 13, 2012 10:46 pm

♥

listen, ♥Happy Mother's Day!


엄마, 사랑해요.

9:21 pm

Saturated

listen, ♥Mixed feelings.

There's really so much hidden inside that sometimes, I don't know which is the real me. Who am I, what am I doing, where is it gonna bring me to?!

Today's Mother's Day, I'm happy that I finally got to sit down with my whole family to have lunch, finally. It's been a long time. Another thing to be happy about, I can finally go to church with my brothers and Nanny. No words can comprehend my feelings.

Then again, see Grandpa as e is, really breaks my heart. I know I may be a little indifferent now, but deep down inside, he matters more than anything in this world.

At many points in time, I try to tell myself that I have to make it an effort, to show that I truly love and care for him, but every now and then, my ego stands in the way of what I wanna being across.

Am I being selfish?! What am I afraid of?! What is there to lose?!

I don't know, I really don't.

And I sit here, wondering why things has gone this way, why things went wrong. How am I suppose to put a smile on other's face, what about mine?! I don't know. And I am concerned.

This feelings within me, is eating me real bad. What am I to say?! What am I to do?!

Saturday, May 12, 2012 10:31 pm

Suicide

listen, ♥I WANNA KILL MYSELF FOR BUYING A WHOLE LOT OF THINGS ONLINE!
/iamscrewed

NO MORE GMARKET OR GROUPON FOR THE NEXT MONTH! /needtosavemoney

2:51 pm

Question

listen, ♥"What kind of Best Friend are you?"

This question hits so hard.

Tuesday, May 01, 2012 9:13 pm

Grumble

listen, ♥After a great day spent with my girls, I return to the hell hole tomorrow.

Need to be entertained.